I did not have one single teensy tiny piece of candy for the entire month of January. On Dec 31st I swore off candy for the year, but a the time I probably didn't believe that I would even last a whole week.
But something has changed, some interior motivation that I've never had before has just appeared and I feel certain that I can do anything I commit to doing.
So no candy this year. Two upper body and two lower body workouts a week, a lot of fun cardio whenever I feel like it, at least 100 grams of protein a day and trying to stay between 1200-1500 calories a day.
If you had told me even six months ago that I'd be totally rocking this new lifestyle, I would have laughed and asked about that bridge you have for sale. But yesterday I was describing to a friend in the lunchroom at work about my healthy eating and another friend piped in "but you can't do that forever". I look at him and without thinking said, "Why not? I deserve it."
That's the point, if I ever really had one to begin with :)
I CAN do this forever, if by "this" I mean love myself enough to pack a healthy lunch and dedicate a little bit of time every day to some fun workouts. I am dancing like a lunatic with my 10 and 5 year olds to the Wii Just Dance game and they are laughing and I am laughing and we are high fiving each other and I just want to cry tears of joy over how much fun we are having together.
I have energy and love for my life and so much joy to share. That's the point, isn't it? The point to this life, and we only get one time around folks, is to share the joy. Get the joke. Laugh when you are having fun. Hug your kids. Find the sweetness in a carrot and the beauty in the snow dusting the mountains.
Enjoy your life. I am, I really am so totally and completely that I lack the words to express it. I enjoyed it a million and a half times when I yanked my husbands book out of his hands last night, turned on the stereo to an old Heart cd, and gave him the kind of kiss that he definitely wasn't expecting!
I will not allow dread, negativity, or "I cant's" to take root in my consciousness any more.
It's all good friends, seize the joy.